This term just needs to end already. These last 2 weeks are ganna take forever i feel it...ahhhh, please holidays!!!!!

Pearls that swim the rift of me
Long and weary my road has been
I was lost in the cities
Alone in the hills
No sorrow I feel
For anything I feel yea

I am not your rolling wheels
I am a highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky

Friends and liars
Don’t wait for me
Cause I’ll get on
All by myself
Put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close to you
I feel

I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the sky here
I am not your automn moon
I am the night
The night

So i just came back from watching Swan lake and i must say...it was brilliant!!! truely amazing. Those balarinas dance with such delicacy. They seem so fragile, dance so softly and yet have this incredible strength. Wow. The scenary, the lights, everything. It really was worth watching! And the men dancers as well...danced incredibly. Sometimes i wish that i could just dance with that ease. I mean, i know it took them a lot of years of hard work and practice but it would be so nice to just know how to dance like them. I really admire people who dance like that...ok well, enjoy ur weekend guys! night night ;*

I wanted to write something interesting but i really cant think of anything. I am just so tired i cant even think straight and my eyes just want to close. Ahhh..oh well, i'll go to bed now now and hopefully by tomorrow i'll be better. Im having a little problem. I dont know if i should go to the swan lake ballet performance on friday or go to a party as it will be the last time i will see bev in quite a long while. WHY did my parents have to buy tickets on a FRIDAY? if only it had been on a day of the week things would have been so much simpler! hmmmm..of course, ultimately it is up to me to decide but i really really dont know.
Ok well, must go sleep now..extremely tired.

Its funny how things change so quickly. At one moment you can have so much in common with someone, have a good time with them, share inside jokes, realize how smiliar you both are. And then 2 months later you dont understand how you guys had such a tight bond and you really cant identify yourself with that person anymore. Now, i dont say this is just in a romantic point of view. I say it in a general point of view...be it with a friend, a school buddy, a family member, a special someone, whatever. Its very strange actually. One day you can sit next to someone and think so much of them. Another day you can sit next to them and wonder how you ever thought that of them. Feelings in a way always change or mature. Like, if they dont change or fade, they ultimately mature into something much deeper. They mature into a relationship where you know you dont have to say anything, when a silence isnt awkward, but comfortable. I believe that when you achieve a bond like that with someone it is more likely to become a life long one too. Because, even if you dont see that person in a long time, when you do see them again you pick up where you left off and it doesnt even seem like you spent so much time apart.

Anyways...i went to the rugby on friday, bulls vs the hurricanes and i cant believe we lost! by 3 points!!! we should of won! oh well, i still had a great time, going to the rugby is always awesome. Last night i finally went to watch "Pride and Prejudice". It is such a beautiful story. I adored the movie. It was kind of frustrating because Lizzy and Mr. Darcy took forever to get together and all the while youre just thinking, hug already, kiss already! but its a very happy ending, so if you havent watched it...i say, please do so! Also, now that they did a remake of "Pride and Prejudice" I would like them to make a remake of "Wuthering heights" a book i enjoyed reading very much and also a very strong love story. Speaking of which, i really want to start reading a book. Is there any good book someone recommends? I would appreciate it very much if someone were to recommend something.

Anyways, enjoy the rest of your sunday and the rest of your mid term! we do after all only have 2 more days of relaxing and doing what we wish! ;*

"Move Along"

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Is it wrong to want someone just to urself? To feel a kind pleasant frustration, an unbearable pain but a very soft and delicate one…
And to not want anyone? Is that wrong too? To want to run away when they hug u, to want to cry when they tell u the sweetest things that u want to hear…just not at that moment…
I think that my mistake is in wanting everything all at once, and yet not wanting anything really.

You know, something that really irritates me is when people say "i love u" as often as they say "good morning". This is something that happens a lot in Brazil. You meet someone one day the next they come hugging u screaming that they love u. I mean, please. PLEASE. You do not love me, u dont even know me! thats the way i see it. Sorry, just had to get that out after what i just saw.

Anyway, it was bevs bday today! my darling girl is now 16. Its amazing how time goes by so so quickly! its scary as well. I cant wait til i turn 16, but at the same time i dont know how much i want it due to the fact that i dont want to get old.

Im so glad mid term break is right around the corner! just tomorrow. I think everybody needs this break so its ganna be a well deserved one! ;*

hello...
I had a good time last night. Went to the "stay awake" with ty and we really didnt sleep. If i was lucky i slept 3 hours. So, what happens when u dont sleep and u havent been sleeping right the whole week? ur body really cant take it! I got home quite early, then went to brooklyn, and as i was there i couldnt even think straight. All i wanted was a bed and an opportunity to close my eyes and sleep. So, as soon as i got home thats exactly what i did. Slept. Slept the whole day! i hate it when i sleep during the day...its such a waste. I woke up frustrated realizing that im going to have so much work to do tomorrow. And hey, im still tired. In fact, its saturday night and im at home because i dont have the energy to even get a glass of water! its really terrible. I did however "watch" (i was half awake, half alseep)the rugby and i am proud to say that we won 23 to 16! to all of u who went to the rugby, i really hope ya'll had a great time =D I really cant wait for the mid term break...i need it so badly! what sucks however is that none of the other schools have the mid term break with us and that its only a long weekend. This 1st term is taking forever, i just want it to end already. Its a 4 month term! we students cant focus hard for that long. We become bored and we need to have fun ya know! recharge our energies, come back wanting to work hard and acheive good marks! well at least thats how i see it. Oh, one other thing. I reeeeeeeeeeally want to watch brokeback mountain! im so disappointed that heath ledger and jake gyllenhaal didnt win the oscars. Even though i havent watched the movie yet, ive read such good reviews! oh well, theyre still young. Id better go to bed now. Bye bye :)

Have you ever wondered if we can live for eternity?

We live and die. Between the two, we age. Aging is the gradual decline in the body structure and function. Eventually, the body's inability to ward off diseases results in death. In fact, humans are programmed to die! Cells reproduce by dividing , and each type of cell undergoes doublings. The amount of doubling decreases as you grow. And research has shown that if cells taken from an old are transplanted to a young of the same species, the older cells still die at the predestinated time. As the body ages heart’s performances are reduced, bones become more fragile and are more likely to break, even with minor falls, our skin wrinkles and becomes less elastic, our hair grays and thins, the body is less resistant to infection, the sense organs become less sensitive. Worse, even brain cells, which do not reproduce, will lose function with age. In the scientific aspect, we age and die. So enjoy the fruits of success during youth.

I came back from school today determined to finish my homework now so i can relax on the weekend but as i got to my english essay i couldnt decide which of the two ideas i should write about. My topic is "stop the clock" and i really dont know if i should write about the fact that young people want to be forever young or to tell people to make the most of life. HmmMMMMmmmmMMMMMmm..
Im feeling really tired at the moment. I guess i just need to take a weekend to catch up on my sleep! apart from that everything is going really well. I cant really complain. Im actually starting this new thing where i try to not complain. Have you noticed how human beings complain 24/7? all the freaking time! no one is EVER satisfied. I think we should be more thankful for what we have and that we should look at the positive side of things.
Oh well..will write more later! for now, happy weekend to all and eNjOy!! ;*

You know those days in which you feel so frustrated that you just want to scream your lungs out? you just want to shrink into a little ball and cry, not tears of sadness or joy, but of pure frustration. Or maybe punch a pillow? Yup, i was having one of those days. And not because of school. I know that i havent been paying attention in science class lately, and that i havent been giving my all in maths. I know that i should of studied harder for the biology test tomorrow and that i should be worried about my english. But no...its not school thats been getting to me. I was however very frustrated. Maybe it was because of the future, because you never know whats going to happen and you want it to go well but you know it might not. Frustrated cuz time seems to each minute pass you by quicker and you want to cherish your life more! Frustrated because you want something and you know very well that you probably wont get it! Yip, thats why i was frustrated.

I feel very content actually at the moment, despite the way i was feeling on earlier in the day. After doing pilates and going to dance classes i feel really good. I feel like when i close my eyes and rest my head on my pillow, that i will fall asleep instantly.

Im really looking forward to tomorrow...hopefully everything will turn out well!! =)